Monday, July 6, 2009

Divorce poems

I haven't posted in so long because of what's going on in my life. I wanted to check in and say that I'm alive and struggling with trying to face the truth of my life right now...that after 15 years I'm in the process of a divorce. I know many of you already know this about my life and have experienced such difficulties yourselves. It's an excruciating time, especially since this is not my choice, but as the song says I will survive--lyrics I must trust.

I will be back to the blog again when I'm feeling healthier and stronger. In the meantime, feel free to check in with me on Facebook. And I close for a time with two poems that emanate my truths.

The Afternoon Sun
C. P. Cavafy (Translated by Aliki Barnstone)

This room, how well I know it.
Now they rent it and the one next door
as commercial offices. The whole house became
offices for agents and merchants and companies.

Ah, this room, how familiar.

The couch was near the door, here;
in front, a Turkish rug;
near the couch, two yellow vases on a shelf.
On the right, no, across from it, was an armoire with a mirror.
In the middle, the table where he wrote
and three wicker chairs.
Next to the window was the bed
where we made love so many times.

These sad things must still be somewhere.

Next to the window was the bed;
the afternoon sun spread across halfway.

...One afternoon at four o'clock, we separated,
just for a week....Alas,
that week became forever.


A Pity, We Were Such A Good Invention
by Yehuda Amichai

They amputated
Your thighs off my hips.
As far as I'm concerned
They are all surgeons. All of them.

They dismantled us
Each from the other.
As far as I'm concerned
They are all engineers. All of them.

A pity. We were such a good
And loving invention.
An aeroplane made from a wife* and wife.
Wings and everything.We hovered a little above the earth.

We even flew a little.

(*original says "man")


CathM said...

Stay strong! See you whenever you're back in bloggyland :)

Joanna@BooneDocksWilcox said...

sad subject matter but glad you are blogging again. If you get a chance read - A Country Year by Sue Hubbell. Living out in the the Ozarks, husband left, she grieved for a long time, rebounded, and now life is good.

Collin Kelley said...

Good to talk to you last night. You know I'm always around if you need a laugh.

Jo A. T.B. said...

Sorry things aren't going well for you! Sometimes life can be so hard! Wish you the best in overcoming your situation, however it may turn out!

Lisa Nanette Allender said...

Hi Kate! Good on you, posting the words that are helping you. The pic of the solitary boat is heartbreaking. I have no doubt you'll press on--and well!
You deserve the very best of life.
Peace, woman. ;)

Holli said...

I'm sorry to hear this Kate. I'm thinking of you.... stay strong!

Jaypee David said...

When me and my wife separated through divorce, we had no choice but to settle arrangements when it comes to co-parenting. We have 2 young kids and we don't want them to suffer just because we needed to part ways. So me and my ex-wife are working hand in hand to take care of the kids. My wife also bought co-parenting planner/organizer from which really is of big help in this process. Hopefully we'll get things flowing smoothly as planned. Thanks for sharing this! :)