Saturday, February 14, 2009

Love to all on Valentine's Day

On our walk this morning we could see snow on Mt. Hamilton to the east, just a short drive from our house. It's cold here in the valley where a wind blows on us through the mountain.

A big week is ahead of me. I'm giving 3 readings: One at Ravenswood tomorrow, one on campus Wednesday and one Friday at the CATE Conference (an on-stage conversation about the coming-of-age novel with Nick Taylor). At the Wednesday reading at the library on campus, there will be a champagne reception--so if my book can't lure you, maybe free booze can?

My mom asked me to write a blog entry about Alzheimer's, the disease she suffers from. It's percolating and will appear here in the next few weeks. I'll get to see her tomorrow because she's coming with me to my reading. It's always bittersweet to spend time together at a literary event because I got my love for reading and writing from her--and she can no longer do either. Well, for the most part. She's keeping a journal of ongoing, short entries--writing it by hand because typing is too difficult. In her day she published several books and was a big reader. She told me she misses reading. Fortunately she has movies in her life--and a lot of family love.

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

News junkie detox, self-assured women and slow blogging

I've been feeling a bit hibernation-al since the election. Political burnout? I don't want to put my head in the sand, but when I listen to the news (mostly NPR), I find my blood pressure rising. Any mention of the words "economy," "stimulus," "partisan bickering" or "Congress" and I feel a need to hug a tree or enter news junkie detox.

Most of my energy these past few weeks has been put into teaching and writing. Lots of preparation for class and grading. Lots of hours working on final revisions of Complementary Colors, my novel that's coming out later this year.

I'm also writing on my new novel--by hand, in wide-ruled notebooks from Target. They don't have to be from Target, but they just happen to be. It makes writing feel as good as it did in middle school when I wrote long notes to friends in such notebooks. There's something that allows me to be more at ease with writing a shitty first draft when it's written in a notebook. It feels like there's more space for my unconscious and associational mind. It's hard to know if the writing's really any good, but I'm trying not to worry about that right now. Instead, I'm just moving along, gathering pages.

The reading at Books Inc. in the Castro with Patricia Harrelson was fun and intimate. (Intimate is code for not very many people in the audience.) It really was fun, though, and afterward the small audience, Patricia and I had a great conversation about being and writing, so to speak. One woman who attended I'd cyber-met on Goodreads. She, Annie and I really connected. How cool, we have a new writerly friend.

My next event is this Sunday, a poetry reading at Ravenswood in Livermore at 2 p.m.

A few new reviews of For the May Queen have been popping up, such as on Joy's Poetry Blog and The Feminist Review. I take a little issue with the notion that by the end of the book Norma has not "ditched her bad habits" nor "transformed into a strong self-assured woman." Sure, it's complicated--but from my view, at least, I see that she is living life more on her own terms.

Am I slow blogging these days? Kinda feels like it. Then again, this comment itself with the link might mean I'm not.

Thursday, February 5, 2009

Walking and listening

Tonight is my reading with Patricia Harrelson at Books Inc. in the Castro at 7:30 p.m. Come by if you can!

I finally finished listening to Eat, Pray, Love by Elizabeth Gilbert. You know it's a good sign when you're in the middle of listening to a book on tape on your ipod and you can't wait to get out for another walk to continue listening. Elizabeth Gilbert's mellifluous, smoky voice was part of my life for weeks, and I'll miss her.

Bottom line, she's a very good writer. I enjoyed her witty insights into life. There were times when I felt she lingered too long on some of her twisting thoughts (especially with some of the god talk ... yes, I know, there is "pray" in the title, should have been a warning)--and that would be when I'd still feel the rhythm and tone of her voice but drift off a bit and focus instead on the trees, the car, my dog on a leash.

In the first part, "Italy," I noticed that as she talked about her depression she said she tried "everything" to get out of it before succumbing to drug therapy: meditation, hanging around positive people, exercise, prayer ... but I noticed her list was lacking one thing my mother always told me lifted depression: helping other people. When I was a teenager slouching around the house, bemoaning one thing or another, Mom would say, "Go volunteer somewhere, help some people, get outside of your pitiful self."

Or something like that.

That's what I wanted to say to Liz at times as she spoke into my ears. But listening to a book on tape is not a dialogue. Later, though, when she was in Bali in the last part of the book, it seems that is one thing she did learn. Of course nothing is as simple as it sounds, and I enjoyed the surprises in that section as she tried to navigate the cultural and personality differences between herself and the woman she was attempting to assist.

I loved the end of the book, the last image, the last line. It made me smile in a weepy little way as I walked down the sidewalk toward home.

Monday, February 2, 2009

The Fabulous Barbara Crooker

For a while I wrote a blog feature called "Poetry Monday," which I loved in theory because I got to write about and spread around wonderful poetry ... but in practice, it made my blog a job. An unpaid job. I don't need another unpaid job in my life.

That said, now and again, at random times, I will share with you some poetry by poets I think are fabulous. Today I share with you Barbara Crooker. These poems come from Radiance .


In Barbara's words, both poems are:

"ekphrastic* in nature. Also both are based on gardens, both my own, and ones that I've visited, and travelling in France. It seems that writing poetry is the only way that an English major/Art History minor, enthusiastic but amateur gardener, and would-be world traveller can come together!

*(poetry that has a conversation with art)


IRIS, 1889
Vincent Van Gogh

Out of the stony ground of his tortured life, these iris

rise, writhe, charmed like snakes by the song of the sun.

The wild blue heart of longing moves up, up,

from papery rhizomes, common dirt. Out of nothing,

armfuls of sky. They burn, flames in a hearth, as they dance

above the pale green swords of their leaves. It's all

or nothing, this loud shout, this wild abundance, a few short

weeks in May. On the canvas, they sing forever. The suffering

world recedes in the background. They lean to the left, pushed

by the wind, but not one stalk is bent or broken. Oh, the fierce

burning joys of this life; all the things of the world, about to vanish.

*

THE HOUR OF PEONIES

The Buddha says, "Breathing in, I know I am here in my body.

Breathing out, I smile to my body," and here I am, mid-span,

a full-figured woman who could have posed for Renoir.

When I die, I want you to plant peonies for me, so each May,

my body will resurrect itself in these opulent blooms, one of les Baigneuses,

sunlight stippling their luminous breasts, rosy nipples, full bellies,

an amplitude of flesh, luxe, calme et volupté. And so are these flowers,

an exuberance of cream, pink, raspberry, not a shrinking violet among them.

They splurge, they don't hold back, they spend it all.

At the end, confined to a wheelchair, paintbrushes strapped to his arthritic hands,

Renoir said, "the limpidity of the flesh, one wants to caress it.

"Even after the petals have fallen, the lawn is full of snow,

the last act in Swan Lake where the corps de ballet, in their feathered tutus,

kneel and kiss the ground, cover it in light.

*

Barbara Crooker’s work has appeared in magazines such as Yankee, The Christian Science Monitor, Highlights for Children, and The Journal of American Medicine (JAMA). She is the recipient of the 2006 Ekphrastic Poetry Award from Rosebud, the 2004 WB Yeats Society of New York Award, the 2003 Thomas Merton Poetry of the Sacred Award, three Pennsylvania Council on the Arts Creative Writing Fellowships, and has been a twenty-four time nominee for the Pushcart Prize. Radiance, her first full-length book, won the 2005 Word Press First Book competition, and was a finalist for the 2006 Paterson Poetry Prize. Line Dance was published by Word Press in 2008. Recently, Garrison Keillor read eleven of her poems on The Writer's Almanac, National Public Radio.

Sunday, February 1, 2009

Football non grata

This Thursday at 7:30 p.m., Patricia Harrelson, author of Between Two Women, and I are doing a reading at Books Inc. in the Castro. If you're in the Bay Area, come by if you can!

Here's an interview I did with Patricia about her book, writing, life . . .

I've been noticing that reviews of my novel, For the May Queen, have gone viral on Goodreads and are multiplying on Amazon, for which I'm grateful. Well, I'm grateful for the good ones. And the bad ones? Some people just have no taste.

I'm in the process of writing another novel, and my new characters are front and center in my creative attention. They feel like people I'm living with--new roommates. We're negotiating our living space and our daily rhythms. The characters in For the May Queen, on the other hand, feel like old friends.

I heard a rumor that the Superbowl is today.

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

O, the poems

Have you seen this yet? 100 poets are writing a poem for the first 100 days of the new Obama Administration.

Is it a coincidence that Obama and Oprah are iconic Os?

Monday, January 26, 2009

Teach, Name, Luck

I've discovered the joy of taking long walks while listening to a book on my ipod. I walked to work this morning (about 2 miles) while listening to Eat, Pray, Love. Elizabeth Gilbert has a seductive voice that adds extra joy to the experience. Even when she's talking about wanting to kill herself, you feel like you're swimming in silk.

Today was the first day of classes. Each class was full, and then some ... as always, students were trying to add, and I felt like I was kicking a puppy when I had to turn them away. It's only going to get worse next year with the cutbacks. Too bad we don't build fewer bombs and prisons so there's money for an extra class or two.

I asked my students today to write about their names. I told them I'm Kathleen Mary Evans. My baby book indicates the "Kathleen" comes from my dad's cousin, whom I don't remember meeting but apparently did, according to an old photo showing the baby me in a blow-up wading pool with her standing nearby. "Mary," according to my mom, comes from "the mother of God." Yes, that's what she wrote in my baby book. No pressure, huh? "Evans" is a bastardization of some Hungarian name that was changed when someone several generations ago passed into the U.S. via Ellis Island. I also talked about how I came to being called "Kate" by a friend of mine in college who loved Kate Hepburn (his name was Joe, and "Chuck" in my novel, For the May Queen, is based on Joe). My students in Japan called me Kate-san (they wanted nothing to do with the mouthful that is "Kathleen"). Now that I'm writing this I can see there are so many other associations and family stories that come to mind when I think about my name (such as the fact that Annie calls me "Leen"). This means it's fertile ground for writing. And when we share next week, we'll get to learn some things about each other.

The energy is class was great today. No one fell asleep as I went over the details of the syllabus, always a good sign. We have so many great things happening this semester, including visits to campus by Mark Doty, Paul Lisicky, Aimee Bender, Sandra Gilbert and more. And did I mention my great luck, that during Spring Break, I'm going to Hawaii with my mom, sisters and Annie? Aloha is always a good thing to inject into one's psyche and body while pining for summer--which I always am doing mid-March.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

It's a New White House, Queerly Speaking

Within moments of Barack Obama's swearing in, the official website of the White House was updated with a lengthy list of commitments to LGBT rights.

Support for the LGBT Community
"While we have come a long way since the Stonewall riots in 1969, we still have a lot of work to do. Too often, the issue of LGBT rights is exploited by those seeking to divide us. But at its core, this issue is about who we are as Americans. It's about whether this nation is going to live up to its founding promise of equality by treating all its citizens with dignity and respect."
-- Barack Obama, June 1, 2007

Expand Hate Crimes Statutes: In 2004, crimes against LGBT Americans constituted the third-highest category of hate crime reported and made up more than 15 percent of such crimes. President Obama cosponsored legislation that would expand federal jurisdiction to include violent hate crimes perpetrated because of race, color, religion, national origin, sexual orientation, gender identity, or physical disability. As a state senator, President Obama passed tough legislation that made hate crimes and conspiracy to commit them against the law.

Fight Workplace Discrimination: President Obama supports the Employment Non-Discrimination Act, and believes that our anti-discrimination employment laws should be expanded to include sexual orientation and gender identity. While an increasing number of employers have extended benefits to their employees' domestic partners, discrimination based on sexual orientation in the workplace occurs with no federal legal remedy. The President also sponsored legislation in the Illinois State Senate that would ban employment discrimination on the basis of sexual orientation.

Support Full Civil Unions and Federal Rights for LGBT Couples: President Obama supports full civil unions that give same-sex couples legal rights and privileges equal to those of married couples. Obama also believes we need to repeal the Defense of Marriage Act and enact legislation that would ensure that the 1,100+ federal legal rights and benefits currently provided on the basis of marital status are extended to same-sex couples in civil unions and other legally-recognized unions. These rights and benefits include the right to assist a loved one in times of emergency, the right to equal health insurance and other employment benefits, and property rights.

Oppose a Constitutional Ban on Same-Sex Marriage: President Obama voted against the Federal Marriage Amendment in 2006 which would have defined marriage as between a man and a woman and prevented judicial extension of marriage-like rights to same-sex or other unmarried couples.

Repeal Don't Ask-Don't Tell: President Obama agrees with former Chairman of the Joint Chiefs of Staff John Shalikashvili and other military experts that we need to repeal the "don't ask, don't tell" policy. The key test for military service should be patriotism, a sense of duty, and a willingness to serve. Discrimination should be prohibited. The U.S. government has spent millions of dollars replacing troops kicked out of the military because of their sexual orientation. Additionally, more than 300 language experts have been fired under this policy, including more than 50 who are fluent in Arabic. The President will work with military leaders to repeal the current policy and ensure it helps accomplish our national defense goals.

Expand Adoption Rights: President Obama believes that we must ensure adoption rights for all couples and individuals, regardless of their sexual orientation. He thinks that a child will benefit from a healthy and loving home, whether the parents are gay or not.

Promote AIDS Prevention: In the first year of his presidency, President Obama will develop and begin to implement a comprehensive national HIV/AIDS strategy that includes all federal agencies. The strategy will be designed to reduce HIV infections, increase access to care and reduce HIV-related health disparities. The President will support common sense approaches including age-appropriate sex education that includes information about contraception, combating infection within our prison population through education and contraception, and distributing contraceptives through our public health system. The President also supports lifting the federal ban on needle exchange, which could dramatically reduce rates of infection among drug users. President Obama has also been willing to confront the stigma -- too often tied to homophobia -- that continues to surround HIV/AIDS.

Empower Women to Prevent HIV/AIDS: In the United States, the percentage of women diagnosed with AIDS has quadrupled over the last 20 years. Today, women account for more than one quarter of all new HIV/AIDS diagnoses. President Obama introduced the Microbicide Development Act, which will accelerate the development of products that empower women in the battle against AIDS. Microbicides are a class of products currently under development that women apply topically to prevent transmission of HIV and other infections.

(Thanks Joe.My.God.)

Dear President Obama


Welcome to the White House. The bull in the china shop has flown back to Texas. Let us hope you can begin to put the pieces back together, and then some. In the meantime, thank you for the phenomenal inaugeration speech. No question, you are an inspiration.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Spring is even better when it arrives in winter

It's sunny and in the 70s today. I'm sitting in my new favorite local cafe drinking a brilliantly delicious orange, mango and peach smoothie, enjoying the warm air wafting in through the open door. We've had a much colder than normal winter this year, so I'm reveling in this reprieve. The dogs enjoyed it greatly this morning, too. I'll be back home in a bit and will take them for a second or maybe even a third walk, a special treat.

Before I left home, I put organic chicken and vegetables in the crock pot. It's gonna smell great the minute I walk in. Or maybe even as I walk up to the front door. Our good friend Janelle is coming over tonight for dinner. We haven't seen her in a while, so there will be lots of juicy stuff to catch up on over food and wine. It's possible we might go to another friend's house (since we don't have TV) to watch the opener of American Idol, but then again we might just play Scrabble.

I'm still on winter break for another week. I have to get off my duff and write my syllabi for spring now that I've written an involved syllabus with many requirements (ah, bureaucracy) for a course I'm teaching in fall 2009. That class is for frosh and features LGBTQ Film and Literature. It's been very hard to narrow things down because there's so much out there. I've decided to focus on literature and film that features history, activism and multiculturalism. We're also focusing on the literary and creative imagination, which is why I'm using fiction, poetry, creative nonfiction and fictional films, rather than straight-up nonfiction and documentary. Here's what I'll be using:

Books:
Revolutionary Voices: A Multicultural Queer Youth Anthology
Stuck Rubber Baby (a graphic novel about queer lives during the Civil Rights movement in the South)

Films:
The Bubble (Israel, Palestine)
Fire (India)
Hedwig and the Angry Inch (East Berlin/Canada)
Ma Vie en Rose (France)
Maurice (England)
Milk (U.S.)
Out of the Past (U.S.; documentary about queer history & youth activism/GSAs)
Saving Face (U.S.; Asian-American)

In addition to working on that, I've been revising Complementary Colors, my novel that's coming out this summer. The publisher wants my revisions shortly. I've also been working on the caregiving memoir. Unfortunately, I've shelved my historical novel. I'm stuck stuck stuck. But I'm working on a different novel, a contemporary one. Perhaps I'll return to the historical another day.

Obviously I haven't blogged a lot lately. I've been living a bit more slowly in all aspects of my life, especially now that we don't have the internet at home. I feel like I'm saving gems of gentleness and wandering in preparation for the quick pace that awaits me when the semester begins, when I'll be teaching 4 writing classes and continuing my book tour. I'll be doing a radio show and a TV show in the next few months, in addition to the following events:

Kate Evans & Patricia Harrelson Reading
February 05, 2009, 7:30PM
Books Inc. in the Castro, San Francisco, CA
http://www.booksinc.net/NASApp/store/IndexJsp?s=storeevents&eventId=402716
Kate Evans will read from her latest book, For the May Queen, and Patricia Harrelson will read from her book, Between Two Women at Books Inc. in the Castro. FREE.

Kate Evans & Lillian Vallee Poetry Reading
February 15, 2009, 2:00PM
Ravenswood Historic Site, Livermore, CA
http://www.poetrypost.com/Upcoming_Events.html
Kate Evans and Lillian Vallee read poetry at the Beautiful Ravenswood Historic site Livermore, California. $5.00 includes Refreshments. Open Mic after a short Break.

Kate Evans Reading & Champagne Reception
February 18, 2009, 6:30PM
Martin Luther King, Jr. Library, San Jose, CA,
http://www.sjlibrary.org/gateways/academic/
Kate Evans reads from her novel, For the May Queen, and also will read from her in-process memoir. She will take audience questions and sign books. Champagne Reception follows. FREE.

This morning I was listening on the radio to Hillary's confirmation hearing. Parts were interesting, but at times I almost dozed off. These congresspeople love to hear themselves talk. I'm just praying (I mean that metaphorically) that Hillary can do something about the horror that is Gaza.

Friday, January 9, 2009

Must see

Annie and I just saw it the other night because I'm searching for films to use in a class I'm teaching about the queer experience in film and literature. Unfortunately this film is very apropos now. If you see it, let me know what you think.

Peace.